Sometimes I Feel A Bit Feel Funny

ifuckedamillionaire:

wwonderful:

sexuality is so dumb why does it even matter who you like no one is gonna like you back anyways

that’s why i’m a slut now.

(via toned-tanned-fit-andready)

I had a day off today and it was pretty productive: did my taxes, paid some bills, and started cleaning my room. Good for me. It was a nice sunny day so I had the curtain of the bay window in my room open. My room was nice and bright and things were going well. I decided to move one of my big mirrors from my dresser to the center of the bay window that faces the yard (nice lighting=better make-up, I could get a full body reflection, and it used up space so people could see into my room less). The mirror had no backing so I used pictures from an Andy Warhol calendar I found and made a collage on the back.

I’m not that creative or artistic so I was pretty happy with how cute I thought it looked, and proud of what I had accomplished. Then my mom got home from work.

My mom works very hard for our family and she has very particular tastes (she’s also super good at art-watercolors, acrylic, graphite, oils, etc.). When she came in, she immediately came into my room and told me to take the mirror down. She said you could see it from down the street and that it looked like something a tinker would have. She said this wasn’t a tinkers house and she didn’t want anything in the window, she worked hard and didn’t want her house to look like trash. 

I argued to keep it in the window, and of course I started crying,  she got mad and didn’t understand what the big deal was, and its her house so it came down. Like, I know she doesn’t realize how hurtful her words are or why, I just want her to see it from my point of view:

I myself am not great at art (simple truth, not self-deprecating) and I spent some time on something that I thought turned out pretty well. Then she (whom I find to be very artistic) comes in and immediately insults what I’ve worked on and become proud of. When I become defensive and defiant, she becomes angry and demanding, not realizing she’s just insulted me and seriously hurt my feelings (and my ego a little bit). 

I just wish she could see what she does to me… its just like…

ugh.